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I'm getting the impression that my blog is very LAME-O and uninteresting in such a way that i just want to slash it to pieces.  Maybe i will... but too many memories associated with it, so i guess i'll spare it for now.

   Ah... back home again finally... it's been 9 months, but still nothing has changed... still the same commercials on the TV, mostly the same buildings here and there.... seeing old friends again really makes life worth living... Life is overall... great!

   What threw me off is a certain someone who shall not be named who is making another surprise appearance in my life again... and lets just say the communication lines have been severed for more than half a year... just saw the picture on friendster again, and nervous butterflies in my stomach? what is this... thought i'd lost all feeling for whats-the-name, but apparently... the flame is still going? It seems that fate seems to hate to leave me alone...
   actually, i think its more the guilt than anything else... facing the person you have hurt again is just... scary... i have so much to say to he-who-shall-not-be-named, but who knows if its the right time... too fresh? just right?  i've had phases where i battle myself wondering if i should call him and see if things are okay between us.... we've been buddies for so long... and of course, it takes just one small incident to shatter the fragile peace we had...
   been thinking (more like obsessing) about the first time i'll meet him again after all this happened... to the point where it's haunting me in my dreams: I see him there and i want to approach, but he ignores me and i in turn ignore him, and i have this crazy urge to call out to him but i never get to, until the end of the dream i pick up the phone and start dialing his number, and boom! the phone rings.... and i wake up!

   lol... don't get me wrong, i'm perfectly happy with my current beau... i'm just punishing myself for a great wrong i have done to someone and i really just want to be forgiven... to know that i've been absolved of all my wrongdoings and we can pick things up again... from the beginning, and very slowly...

Wah.... so excited!! only 13 more days to go till i go back to Malaysia... 3 more days till my brother gets here....

Since Sheak Li has already started complaining, i guess i should start updating my blog again huh....

Summer vacations are ON! Been at Josh's house since last thursday... moving out was such a bitch! His parents had come up to take half of his crap away over the weekend, but we still managed to find a lot more crap we HAD to take back home... plus everyone else had to unload THEIR crap off to our car, cos it wouldn't fit their car.... ended up piling all the stuff in the back seat, the trunk, even the front seat!

Yea as you can probably tell... a great big mess!

 

Anyways, didn't get to go camping as i thought... the weather is still kinda cold.. up here in the mountains of Josh's home, it can still go down to 0C at night! so we decided to just chill up here, Josh's brother Matt just had his prom... i cooked for the family again... (no, no food poisoning)

Just yesterday went to the mall near Philadelphia... about 2 hours drive down just to go shopping! haha... not that there aren't any malls near Josh's place, (it's kinda ulu, but not THAT ulu...) but this is supposedly the biggest mall in the east coast... and wow... it was HUGE... it was probably two midvalleys! Every store imaginable... it was pretty crazy...:) shopped till we dropped, but i only bought sunglasses and a tank top... Josh got pissed cos he drove 2 hours for me to only buy sunglasses and a tank top, so he went and bought a whole new outfit! lol good for him, he hadn't bought anything for a while...
On the way back, we were like halfway home when the brake and battery lights on his car started lighting up... JOsh checked his engine temperature and the needle was steadily going up... man that was scary! we pulled over to the side of the highway and his engine just started billowing steam... ended up calling a tow truck to come and tow us off the side of the road, and then bring us back to where Josh lives... lol talk about an adventure, huh?

anyways, that's all i have for now... 3 more weeks till i'm back in sunny and warm Malaysia! i can't wait...

Ahhh..... last day of classes how sweet art thou...

AFter a very quick but painful journey through the semester... it's finally over! In August begins another semester from hell, but who's going to care... at this point i'm thinking, home, here i come!!! ii can almost taste the teh-o-ais limau, smell the roti canai... even hear the 'kanake' in the mamak... and being with friends that i haven't seen for SO long... friends that i jsut cant' wait to see... We're going to travel the world! (or at least to Thailand, or Bali) and 'cheong-K', and just sit and gossip about old times, and talk about new people...

ahhh.... now if only my professors would write me an email and say: oh by the way, we gave you all 100% on the finals, you can go home now...

aiseh.... with all the nice and warm weather out there, who could blame me for feeling a bit frisky and deciding to take a run around campus? so i run like all the way to the campus bookstore (not even 1/2 a kilometer) when suddenly, i go down the stairs i hear a loud *crack*... my knee feels a little out of place so i decide to straighten it... and with another loud *crack* it shifts back into place... aih... now it's as stiff as can be... what to do.... no more running for me... i'll just have to sit on my ass for the rest of my life.... stupidnya... oh yea BTW... sheak li n pong... saw ur pics online from redang.... very very nice... and very very JEALOUS also! *whining* i wanna go to the beach...

Hehe... you guys must be wondering... i haven't seen her back yet.. she hasn't written to tell us anything... what's going on???
So yea... i made it!

The moment of truth... I already got my Canadian visa on Thursday... man that was a hell of a day, had to wake up at like 5am in the morning just to catch the 6am bus into New York City... didn't get there till 8.30, and the consulate closed at 10 in the morning, so had to run around first to take passport pictures, and then up to the Canadian consulate. Turned in my papers at 9.30, the lady actually asked me why the date on my I-20 was so recent, i just told her that my school issued me a new one, she just shrugged and was like, okay you can pick up your visa an hour later.... so i sit around and wait... turns out its over 2 hours before they call my number again to give me back my passport... I dragged poor Josh along with me, but he couldnt' come in and wait with me so he had to walk around the city by himself for a while, poor thing... but he ended up having fun also, so hey, he had no reason to yell at me! anyways.... all said and done, i'm here at my Grandma's house, Chuck is picking me up in like 7 hours, so i really should be getting to bed soon... just that i'm kinda anxious right now... half of me is confident that it's not going to be any problem, i mean it's not that i was out looking for a job and i didn't have money to pay for my education, and not that i was sending money home also, so they should be like, okay... don't do it again. but then the other half of me is like, they're gonna be like, you broke the rules, there's no way around this we're going to have to deport you. Aihhh....... anyways... gonna keep things cool and do my best... otherwise you'll see your dear friend back here a month too soon, not too happy with herself! wish me luck!!